I know that dreams can have a lot of meaning and sometimes they are a little mysterious and hard to understand. Then at other times, what you dream is very straightforward and hits you in the face. Last night I had 2 such dreams. One woke me up at 2AM because it was so disturbing. In the dream, I was trying to keep Andy from doing something and he kept doing it so I started spanking him. It was kind of like that running dream where you just can’t seem to run fast enough. No matter how hard I tried or how high I held my hand, I just couldn’t get my hand to make enough of an impact so Andy was laughing at me. Now, I don’t know what your opinion is on spanking and I don’t want to get into a discussion of if it is right or wrong. I think that is a very personal decision. But this dream was disturbing, not because I was trying to spank Andy, but because I could not get the message through to him that what he was doing was dangerous. I was trying to save him from a dangerous act and he just kept laughing at me and continuing to do it. I was afraid that he was going to hurt himself and I couldn’t stop him, no matter how hard I tried. That was the fear.
The other dream was a wonderful, magical dream. One that I HOPE will come true some day (soon, I hope!). I was doing something with Katie in the dream and Andy came walking into the room, fully dressed, down to his socks and shoes and was begging to go to school. The thing that was so wonderful about it was that neither Dan nor I had dressed him. We were busy with Katie and Andy got impatient so he went into his room and put on all of his clothes, by himself, pulled on his socks and shoes, and yes, even tied his shoes. BY HIMSELF! In the dream, Dan and I both had our mouths wide open in shock. That is my hope. That someday, hopefully some day soon, Andy will be able to do that.
Of course, then I woke up and realized I had to get Andy up and ready for school. But I was proud of him for going potty this morning before school. At least I can be happy for the small successes. One little baby step at a time! 🙂